Teenage Life Crisis.

"have you ever feel like everything's going wrong, and all you wanna do is just close your eyes, and never wake up?"

life's absurd when you're a teenager,
when everyone seems to have their own way, and their own point of life,
they have friends, they know what they want,
and all you got is just nothing but misery.

your clothes don't fit,
your make up's too much,
your attitude's inexplicable,
everything you do, they point at you, and tell you you're wrong.
these time you've been worrying too much to be someone else you're not.

it's a life of being teenager.
some passed it well, some just sink.

as a teenage, i suck.
i don't know what i'm heading to, i just wanna be something different.
but being different isn't always a good thing,
i did fall,
i did fear,
i'm the person your parents afraid most their children will grow up being like,
just not the girl your mother would love to have around for dinner.
I'm just in the perfect stage everyone's afraid but have to pass through,

exactly standing with two stoned-step between the cliffs,
either fall or survive.

feel stupid,
empty and shallow,
it's all it takes every each i open my eyes.

but after all, i realize,
if we were born knowing all these things in life, what would we do with these times on earth?

so i guess, I'll just stop starring at the book,
too afraid to open up a new page, write a new story, begin a chapter,
it's everything you gotta face,
either run or succeed.

If life's a joke, I'll just laugh,
If it's a game, I play hard,
let say tomorrow i'd fall again,
repeat the same stupid mistake,
fall in the same hole,
i'm just an adolescent,
it's always an excuse.

as long as i begin to open the first page of my book,
write the first letter,
i guess i'm fine,
i'll survive.
(at least i believe i will)

so that one day,
when i complete the whole book,
not that it's flawless,
at least it's full of stories,
that i could tell my children,
what I've been through all these times,
when they felt the same way like i do now,
they know they're not alone.

I believe,
whatever i'm doing now, i'm doing it right.
either i'll fall tomorrow, or i'll survive,
it's another day to live with,
another story to tell.

fear not,
face it,
feel it,
live it.

change not to be somebody else,
but a better you.

enjoy your time being a teenage,
when the only thing you have to worry is your make up,
and what to wear the next day,
does your crush like you back,
and your friends are pain in the ass,

life ahead, waiting for you,
is so much more than that.

happy being stupid, silly, imperfect teenager.
meet you 10 years from now, when we all grown up,
we can look back to today, and laugh.

so, Bye Yesterday, Hello Today, and See you Tomorrow!

:)